Hi.
For those who have just discovered me, or for the two who've come back to it after my last post- My name is Nick, and this is my blog.
Once upon a time... I made this blog up for a high school senior project where I would review movies, games, whatever, in the hopes of having a career in critiquing things that made me want to scream my head off, good or bad. I named the blog Always Delayed because of my bad habit of holding things off. I would write essays at the last minute or get bored playing a game or be too tired to watch a movie. For a while, I periodically posted with reviews and stories of downloads that wasted my time and shared my excitement for a game that came out arguably unfinished.
Then as years pass, things change. Those interests became disinteresting or felt harder to express. Moods become more and more frequent. You go out to start a new life only to be put right back where you started, mental scars that never fully heal. All of it making you someone different than what you were a long time ago. Somebody you never expected to become.
Broken promises. Broken hearts. Broken feeling.
Forgive me, there's a whole other post going into more of this back in June of last year. But for the TL;DR group- I lost my motivation, life sucks, and I'm a mess of depression/anxiety which is all sad to think about (The crying type too).
But getting that out of the way, I figured after posting my thoughts on Mario Kart 8's Track Booster, I'd write an update on things about life along with the fate of Always Delayed.
For starters, I've gone turncoat. Me and my brother had been PlayStation kids since the PS2 and we've been with it all the way to the PS4. But with the pandemic limiting stock on next gen platforms to only online purchases, trying to lock in a PS5 was like trying to win the lottery while keeping tabs on five different sheets of Bingo. Then Xbox All Access had some Xbox Series Xs available, and I managed to get one from that. Since then, I've managed to get a decent library going all the way back to original Xbox games (Cause at least I can play some of those older games SONY!). Even got myself a gaming PC to for games consoles don't have (eg, Blood, Half-Life, Telltale's Wallace and Gromit series)... though the results have varied.
Then coming up in March, me and my girlfriend will be celebrating our one year anniversary together. She's been a positive and supportive influence in my life (and vice versa) and we love each other very much. She has her gaming interests, mainly Asphalt 9 and more casual genres, though she has been wanting to learn to play more complex games I play like Doom or GTA. We also watch plenty of movies together that neither of us would not have picked up or seen for ourselves. For instance, she has never seen ANY of the Harry Potter movies, and I picked up on the Scream franchise from her (btw, the new movie is fantastic!).
Now for the blog. One small change you'll notice, instead of the red and black theme that I've used since its creation, I decided to switch it for gray and blue. It's a much calmer color, mentally speaking.
And as for posting? Will I be doing more this year?
Every time I promised to come back with more stuff on here, it's all been false starts. I've had the blog on my mind for years, always thinking of ways to start it back up, but never the motivation or inspiration to do it. I'm not sure how long this burst will be this time. This might be my last post before I depart again for who knows how long.
But I will return.
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